We have finally gotten to the point in the response to the pandemic that we are actively making space for staff to take time off and completely unplug. I have made an effort to ensure that everyone on my team has taken at least 24 hours to themselves, rarely works on weekends, and has a vacation scheduled to look forward to in the next few months. Of course, none of us knows what the world will look like in a few months, or even if that time off will be feasible, but having that little something to look forward to is extremely important to a responder – it can mean the difference between slogging through never-ending tasks and working toward a personal prize. The goal is always to save as many lives as possible, but sometimes that gets lost in the relentless barrage of other duties as assigned. That little something to look forward to is essential.
All of that being said, I am kind of crap at taking time off for myself during a response. It’s not that I don’t want to, it’s because of layers of guilt and the inability to ever really let go of the millions of things I need to get done both at work and at home. If I were to take 24 hours to unplug from the job, I would still be at home doing laundry, dishes, cooking, and yard work, all while surrounded by my family. Don’t get me wrong, I love my family. I literally have the coolest kids on the planet and my husband is insanely supportive, but I’m a doer. I show my love by DOING things for people. If they’re around me, I will do. I cannot recharge my batteries with a truly lazy day right now. It’s just not possible.
And then Sandeul, of B1A4, goes and puts out the absolute perfect song. It’s like Kpop knows me. It’s like it understands. As the kick-off song to his series called House of Thoughts, the group’s main vocalist composed and recorded the track Lazy Me. It’s not a song about being a lazy person or doing nothing because there is nothing to do, it’s a song about intentionally doing nothing and being mindless because it’s healing. It’s about taking your current thoughts and feelings and letting them rest. Doesn’t that sound amazing? Doesn’t that sound necessary?
The MV is an animated delight of the hero just laying in bed – doing nothing. A Welsh corgi wiggles his butt, a yellow pup bounds around the room, time marches on as seen by day turning into night through the open window. But, our hero barely moves. It’s shockingly soothing. I love it. I can’t have it in real life, but man, it really does help just to see it. The music is chill, the vocals are relaxing, and the lyrics are relatable. I hope it heals you too.
Lazy Me, Sandeul